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Late post is late: KWENTONG RN :)


So kahapon nga lumabas yung result ng Nursing Board Exam. Friday pa lang ng gabi excited na ako at kinakabahan, sabi kasi baka nung Friday ilalabas kung tapos na ang deliberation. Buong gabi hindi na ako nakatulog kaya kinaumagahan, puyat. Bumangon na rin ng maaga kasi nga hirap matulog. Hehehe.


Nung Sabado, lagi ko ng kinukulit yung cellphone ko. Baka kasi may updates about sa result, sabi baka 1pm. Pero nag-2pm na lang, wala pa rin. Siguro, pinag-iisipang masyado ng BON yung deliberation. Haha. Nakatulog ako, salamat naman. Pagkagising ko, gabi na. Lagi ko tinatanong si Mama kung di ba siya kinakabahan. Biro ko pa, “Ma, RN o hindi, anak niyo pa rin ako huh” :D Si Papa, pinapakalma ako. Kahit ano daw mangyari, tanggapin dapat, kasi yun yung will ni God. Tama nga naman. Ready na rin ako dun. Ready na maging RN. Hahaha. Hindi ko na masyado pinansin ang oras. Bago kami kumain, chineck ko yung cellphone ko. GM. GM. GM. NLE UPDATE - Lumabas na daw ang Top10. O.O Ayun, nawala yung gutom.

Pero kunwari, kalmado ako. Kumain kami, kumain ako ng hindi ko man lang nalalasahan yung pagkain. Sa isip ko, “Ganito kaya ang feeling ng bibitayin? Aantayin mo yung kamatayan mo or yung pagbabago ng decision ng palasyo na buhayin ka”. Seryoso, ganun talaga yung naramdaman ko. Dasal ko lang talaga na ang tadhana ko ay yung pangalawa. Confident ako na ang kalalabasan ay will ni God, pero hindi ako confident kung yun ba yung magugustuhan ko o hindi. Mahirap kasi sa mahirap yung exam. Nalagas ang mga neurons ko. (RIP to my dead braincells)

After kumain, nakatanggap ako ng message galing kay Momie Cams.

“Congrats RN”

Waaaa. Good news. Pero hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala.

“Momie, nakapasa ako? Nakita mo?” muntanga na tanong. Hahaha.

“2362 ANTIPUESTO REDAWNA MARIE IMASA”, reply niya.

Ayun na. Sobrang saya. Lumundag-lundag ako papunta kay Mama. Tapos na iyak na ako sa sobrang tuwa. Hinanap namin ang panagalan ko sa list ng passers to confirm. Bingo!!! Nag-iisang apelyido. Hahaha. Pinuntahan ko si Papa. Tapos niyakap niya ako. Umiyak ako ng sobra at nag-thank you. Kahit tahimik lang si Papa, naramdaman ko talaga na proud na proud siya sa akin. Tapos lumapit si proud Mama, umiyak na din. Ang saya lang.

Nung nakita ko ang pangalan ko, si Lord una kong pinasalamata

n. Dabest ka Lord! Hindi mo talaga ako pinabayaan :))

Proud na proud din ako sa mga kaibigan ko na nakapasa. Tsaka tumaas yung passing rate ng school namin. Woohoo.

Syempre, proud din ako sa mga hindi. Kasi alam kong ginawa nila ang lahat ng makakaya nila at alam kong gagawin pa rin nila ang best nila sa susunod. Hindi pa talaga siguro ito yung oras nila. So far, positive naman sila. At masaya sila para sa amin. Hindi pa rin ako titigil sa kakadasal para sa kanila. Yun ang kelangan nila ngayon, dasal at suporta.

Gusto ko talaga magpasalamat kay Lord. Kahit ilang beses pa, di ako mapapagod. Salamat Lord sa guidance at lakas ng loob, sa knowlegde at wisdom, sa lahat. Salamat din sa pamilya at relatives ko, kay Papa at Mama dahil sa all out support, sa love, sa guidance, sa motivation at sa trust na magagawa ko ‘to. Salamat sa NDU CHS Family, sa Clinical Instructors, sa mga BSN friends. Salamat sa PRIME ANGELS FAMILY! Kayo na talaga. Haha. Kay Doc Thianlyn Chu, Ma’am Mitz, Ma’am Bem, Sir Neil, Sir Lintao, Sir, G, Ma’am Dao-ayen, Ma’am Tuyan, Ma’am Nids, Ma’am Fely, Sir Phyleep, Sir Poly, Ma’am Jen, Sir Anthony, Sir Eric, at sa lahat na. Salamat sa A2 Loves, Myrmibhoms, friends, tumblr friends, boyfriends, enemies at sa lahat talaga. Salamat sa prayers at inspirations.

Mahaba na. Salamat! HAHAHA :)


Goodbye memories.

Dahil sa boredom, naisipan kong buksan ang Friendster Account ko. Ayun! Malayo sa inaakala ko. Kala ko minor change lang, MAJOR-MAJOR pala.

Hindi mabubuo ang teenage life ko kung walang Friendster. Naalala ko dati, tuwing internet period namin, walang isang computer ang hindi nakalog-in sa friendster. Pagandahan ng themes, pahabaan ng testimonials, pakornihan ng profile pictures, padamihan ng videos at glittergraphics sa page. Haha. Naalala ko din na dahil doon, updated ako sa nangyayari sa taong gusto ko, nagkabati kami nung mga kaibigan kong halos isang taon kong nakatampuhan, nahanap ko yung taong naging mahalaga na din sa buhay ko, nagkaroon ako ng communication sa Tita kong matagal ding nawala at nalaman kong nasa ibang bansa na pala siya. Kung iisipin, madaming nasayang nung binago nila yung Friendster. Effort, pictures, memories, at testimonials ng friends at ni crush. Hindi pa corny or jologs dati ang friendster. Bakit? Kasi yun pa lang naman ang meron tayo. Pumangit lang naman to nung sobrang lumobo na ang bilang ng users, di mo na alam kung yung iba totoo o poser, naglabasan ang mga jejemon at mas sumikat pa si Facebook at si Tumblr. Ganun naman tayo eh. Kung baga si Friendster, Ex-boyfriend o Ex-girlfriend natin. Madalas, wala tayong nasasabing maganda sa ex lalo na kung puro pangit na memories ang meron tayo sa kanila (isang bagay na hindi ako makarelate kasi nga NBSB ako, hahaha) at kung nakahanap na tayo ng pampalit sa kanila. Nagsisi ako kung bakit hindi ko sinave ang laman ng Friendster ko before ito binago. Wala eh. Nasayang lahat ng highschool memories.

Tss. Nagbago lang naman ang Friendster, andami ko ng sinabi. Haha. Walang lang. Nalungkot lang akong bigla nung maalala si First Love. Hindi kung sino ah. Si Friendster nga. First social networking site.

Adios!

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"Tara na", ang sabi ko kay Ann. Feeling ko late na kami sa party ng Prime. At may bago sa kanya, nakaskirt siya at nakasandals. Yes, bago un dahil hindi naman talaga siya ganun.


"Bebe, dapat pala talaga hindi ka nagsusuot ng skirt.", natatawa.


"Bakit?", tanong niya.


"Hindi bagay", pagtatapat ko. At siya, natawa na lang at biglang nawala.


Inakbayan ako ng lalaking hindi ko naman talaga kilala. Nakapulang poloshirt, matangkad, at sabihin na nating gwapo. At pinagtataka ko lang bakit parang magkakilala kami, close pa. Ewan. Naguguluhan ako.


"Tara na, ihahatid kita", yun lang ang sinabi niya at bigla niya akong hinawakan sa kamay at hinila papunta sa sakayan.


Nang dumating kami, andami ng tao. Nasa ibaba pa lang kami ng building nakita ko na si Karen, Jodi, Jet and Kissmet.


"Mosquitoooo!", tawag ni Jet. Hindi ako lumingon. Alam kong tutuksuhin na naman ako nun sa crush kong Mosquito nga ang apelyido.


"Mosquitooooooooo!", mas malakas, mas maraming boses akong naririnig sabay tawa.


Nilingon ko sila. "Jet! Boyfriend ko. Sssshhhh!" Sabay turo sa lalaking may hawak ng mga kamay ko. Nagulat din ako sa sinabi ko. Hindi ko siya kilala.


Kahit na sa sinabi ko, hindi pa rin tumigil ang mga bruha. Hahaha.


Nasa huling baitang na kami paakyat sa pangyayarihan ng party ng nagsimula naman ang panunukso ng mga kasama ko sa review center. Same same. Lahat sila tinatawag ako sa apelyidong weird. Tinignan ko ang kasama ko, parang wala siyang naririnig. Patuloy lang sa paglakad. Hindi ko alam pero inulit ko rin ang ginawa ko.


"Woi. Boyfriend ko oh. Boyfriend ko", depensa ko. Nagtawanan lang sila. Mukhang hindi naniniwala.


Nakita ko si Mosquito, or should I call him Anthony, sa gilid ng hagdan. Kasamang nakaupo ang mga pamilyar din namang mukha. Tumingin siya sa amin at binalik din ang tingin sa mga kasama niya.


"Good morning Sir", bati ko. Tumango lang siya at hindi tumingin sa dako ko.


"Okey", nasabi ko sa isip ko.


Pagdating namin sa itaas, mas maraming tao. Nawala na yung misteryong lalaking kasama ko. Nakatayo lang ako sa isang gilid, malapit sa elevator. May isang Prime Angel na sinusubok yung elevator na yun kung gagana ba. Gumana nga. Nasa loob si Harris at Harold. Biglang lumapit sa akin si Labs at maya-maya si Doc Chu. Kinakausap niya kami about sa board exams.


"Ano 'to?" Biglang nawala ang mga tao at biglang nasa isang parang school o perya na kami. Malabo sa akin yung paligid. Andaming tao, pero nakikita kong karamihan mga kasama ko pa rin sa Review Center. Nanghiram ako kay Steph ng phone para matext sila Mama nang biglang nagtakbuhan ang mga tao.


"Takbo! Tagooooo!" Sigawan ng mga tao. Napako ako sa kinatatayuan ko. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin. Nawala rin yung mga kaibigan ko. Ewan. Baka nagsitakbuhan na rin. Biglang may humawak sa kamay ko. Hinila ako papunta sa mga classrooms. Hindi ko kilala kung sino siya, hindi ko pa nakikita ang mukha. Ang importante, maligtas ako. "Lord, anong nangyayari?", isip-isip ko.


Nung alam kong medyo malayo na kami sa mga tinawag nilang kalaban, nilingon ko ang may-ari ng kamay na nakahawak sa akin. Laking gulat ko kung sino ang nakita ko.


"Sir?!"


"Magtago ka diyan", sabay tulak sa akin sa isang classroom.


Nilibot ko ang loob ng classroom, andoon ang mga kaibigan ko. Hawak-hawak ko ang kandado ng pinto. Ingat na ingat na hindi kami makita sa labas. Pero nasa labas si Anthony, nagbabantay. Nasilip ko kung sino yung mga kalaban na sinasabi nila. Anak ka ng... mga bata pala. May kanya-kanya silang sumpit, at kung ano-ano pa. Mas natakot ako para sa mga taong nasa labas pa. Nagsisigawanng babae, nanlalaban na mga lalaki. Hayy. Naguguluhan ako. Bakit ganito? Party ang pinuntahan ko hindi gulo.


Napansin kami ng isang batang bandido. Pinipilit niyang pumasok at malamang, kunin kaming mga nakatago sa loob. Kunin, saktan, patayin? Hindi ko alam. Hinigpitan ko pa ang hawak ko sa kandado. At ng muli akong sumilip sa labas, naglalaban na sila ni Anthony. Nakita kong may hawak na patalim yung bata. Si Anthony, wala.


"Sir! Pasok ka na dito. Please!", sabay bukas ng pinto at lalabas ako para iligtas siya. Nilingon niya ako at nagulat siya.


"Pasok doon. Huwag kang lumabas", galit na sigaw niya.


Sa ginawa ko, nawala ang konsentrasyon niya sa kaaway at bigla siyang nadunggab ng patalim. "Nakaiwas siya", kung statement yun or hiling, hindi ko na alam. Pero nakita kong nakahiga na siya sa lupa. Saka naman ang pagdating ng mga pulis. "Leche! Kahit kelan huli kayo. Kahit hindi sa movie!", banat ko sa mga pulis na pakamot-kamot lang ng ulo.


Tinayo ko sa Anthony at inalalayan papasok sa loob ng classroom. Pinunasan ko ang buhok niyang basa sa pawis gamit lang din ang kamay ko. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. Kasalanan ko ang lahat. Dali-dali kong tinaas ang poloshirt niya at tiningnan ang sugat. Salamat sa Panginoon. Daplis lang. Mas malaki pa ang sugat na nasa puso ko ng may nalaman ako tungkol sa kanya. At ayun. Naalala ko, brokenhearted pala 'to siya. Kakabreak nila ng girlfriend niya.


"Mas masaya siguro ang parents ko kung hindi nila ako pinanganak noh?" Biglang tanong niya.


"Huwag mong sabihin yan. Alam mo kung ano ang mas nakapagpasaya sa kanila. Yung nabuhay ka. Tsaka may mas masaya ngayon kasi buhay ka. At nakilala ka niya.", sabi ko sa kanya habang pinupunas naman ang pisngi niya.


"Sana nga.", sabi niya.


"Alam kong may problema kang mas malaki", sabay tulo ng luha ko.


"Ano?" tanong niya.


"Nalaman kong wala na daw kayo", sabi ko sabay iwas ng tingin.


"Hayaan mo na yun. Wala na sa akin yun. Tinanggap ko na". sabi niya sabay ngiti.


"Nilalagnat ka!" pansin ko.


"Wala 'to. Pagod lang." At sabay kaming natawa.


"Anong gusto mo? Gagawin ko lahat", habol pa niya. Nagulat ako at nadiinan ng hawak ang sugat niya. "Aray! Galit ka?" tanong niya.


"Anong sabi mo?" untag ko sa kanya.


"Yun na yun"


"Hmm. Ngumiti ka na ulit. Tumawa. Yun lang, masaya na ako." Sabi ko sa kanya. Bigla siyang ngumiti. Yung ngiting talagang namiss ko. Yung ngiting nagustuhan ko sa kanya una pa lang.


"Alam mo katext ko si Steph last night". Kinabahan ako. Baka may nasabi na naman itong makulit kong kaibigan.


"Sabi niya, ang ganda daw ng ngipin mo.", sabi niya sabay tawa.


"An-"


"Sabi ko Oo, cute ka, mabait, nakakatuwa. Kinikilig daw siya", nangingiting sabi niya.


Natatawa na lang ako. Kinikilig. Kahit kelan talaga si Steph. Hmmp! At sa ganung ayos pa kami huh, yung nag-aagaw-buhay siya. Hindi naman talaga. Kasi buhay na buhay siya. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. Sobrang saya ko. Sabay kaming bumalik sa kung saan ang party ng Prime Angels. Pero nasa daan pa lang kami, nakita ko na sila Steph. Hinila nila ako at nagpapasama sa lalaking gusto ni Steph. Aamin na daw siya. Nilingon ko si Anthony, tumango lang siya. At isang halik sa noo ang ginawad niya bago umalis. Nagulat kami. At sigurado akong namumula ang mga pisngi ko ng mga sandaling yun.


"Wala ng oras!" pagpupukaw sa akin ni Steph. Sabay takbo kami sa kinaroroonan ng gusto niyang tao. Nilingon ko ulit si Anthony, wala na siya. Ang bilis naman niya. Sa pagmamadali namin, nadapa ako.


Kasabay ng pagkahulog ko ay ang paggising ko. Tengene! Panaginip lang ang lahat. Kahit isang magandang nangyari doon ay hindi pala totoo. Sa lahat ng panaginip, isa ito sa mga detalyeng naalala ko pa kahit pagkagising. Sana hindi na lang. sana isa na lang ito sa mga panaginip na hindi naaalala. Ano bang iniisip ko kagabi? Ahhh! Yung issue na wala na nga sila ng girlfriend niya. Alam kong miserable siya ngayon kaya nalulungkot ako. Tsk! Hayy. Miss ko na ang Prime Angels. As in! Sana makita ko na sila ulit.


So, ayun nga. Panaginip lang 'to. Ito ang dahilan ng past 10am kong gising.


Good day :)

Hindi ako yun.

Hindi ako yung taong ikakasaya kapag naghiwalay yung gusto ko at ang kasintahan niya. Hindi ako yung hihiling ng "Lord, sana maghiwalay na sila. Please. Please." Alam yan ng mga taong nakakakilala sa akin. YUNG MGA TOTOONG TAONG NAKAKAKILALA SA AKIN. Paano ako magiging masaya kung nalulungkot siya? At kahit kailan hindi ibigsabihin na kapag wala na sila, magkakagusto na siya sa akin or magiging kami na. Look, kung totoong gusto ko siya, or mahalaga siya sa akin, dapat ang laging hiling ko ay yung kabutihan niya. Kahit kelan at kahit kanino, hindi ako yung taong sisira at makikisawsaw sa relationship nila kahit sabihin pa nating mahal ko talaga ang taong yun. Nakakinis minsan, may mga taong, "Hoy Dawn, break na sila! Party2x!" or "Break na sila. Let's celebrate." HINDI AKO GANYAN KASAMA.

Ang point ko lang, respeto sa taong nawalan ng pag-ibig. Kthnxbye!>.<

Ambivalence

Nakauwi na ako sa Cotabato. Balik sa normal na buhay. Mamimiss ko ang Davao. As in. The long rides, yung tipong nakakatulog ako sa jeep/taxi kapag may pinupuntahan. Yung confusing routes, na mas pipiliin ko na lang minsang magtaxi para hindi mawala sa city. Yung patayan sa sakayan kasi paunahan. Mga driver na nakakabadtrip dahil kahit alam nilang wala ng maupuan, basta kulang pa sa bilang ng pasahero, ipagsisiksikan. Yung traffic lights na tahimik na nagpapalit ng ilaw pero minumura ng mga driver. Aun! Madami pa. Yung lugar na araw-araw kong dinadaan for three long months. Yung 6-floor building na araw-araw kong inaakyat para sa review, yung mga co-reviewers ko, ang lecturers and funny staff. Yung tablemates ko na share-share hindi lang sa pagkain kundi pati na rin sa sagot during mastery exams. Yung mga kilig moments na hindi mapapantayan. All good things come to an end. Ganun? Hahaha. Matagal naman siguro akong makakabalik maliban na lang kung maisipan kong maghanap ng trabaho habang nag-aantay ng result ng board exams. Hahay

Pero syempre, masaya ako at nakauwi na. Namimiss ko na si Papa, Mama, at mga kapatid ko. Si Juan at Meetot na aso at pusa. Yung malaking kama at malamig na kwarto. Yung unlimited internet. Haha.

Sobrang nag-enjoy talaga ako sa Davao. But it’s not my place. So, move on. Haha.

Thoughts Last July 4, 2011: Separation Anxiety and Withdrawal

I didn’t wake up early this morning because I knew that there’s no review. Review was done the moment we finished our board exams. I know it’s depressing because after 3 months, I have to stop doing the routine - waiting a jeepney that took a lifetime, riding a jeepney on a smoke-everywhere road, climbing a six-floor building while catching my breath just to attend the review, answering lots of hundred-question exam, fighting the feeling of being sleepy during long lectures, laughing over our lecturers’ jokes, opening our lunchboxes like were little, doing the grab-your-license chant and most of all, seeing same angelic faces everyday.

It’s sad how everything should end like this. This is something I’m not exaggerating. You can’t blame me for treating those new people like special. I mean, I’m happy that I was able to survive the three long months, took the exam that will define my future and will be able to go back home, but goodbye is something I am afraid of. I made new friends, shared cute and hilarious moments, learned a lot, and all of these will become a part of my past. Habit is something hard to change. You see same people everyday and all of a sudden, you can’t. And you can do nothing about it but to remember those times when you’re still together. I know that this feeling will pass but I will never forget that once in my I had friends and I call them ANGELS. I miss you Angels :)


on JEM CUBIL :)

I was really waiting for him last Saturday to perform. Okei, I admit it, he's cute. But that's not the only reason why I voted for him last Saturday and Sunday. He got the looks plus he knows how to play guitar and he can sing well. And he resembles with someone I know. Ehem! Haha.

It was my first time to vote for someone in PGT. As in! I go for him because I believe that he's a total package. Haha. Sorry, I'm a fangirl. And one of my weaknesses is a cute guy who knows how to sing and play guitar and NGSB :p (No wonder. Hahaha)

❒ Single ❒ Taken ✔ GRADUATE NA :)

Wala na talaga bawian ito. Graduate na talaga kami. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na after ilang years, nakapagtapos rin kami. Sobrang saya at sobrang lungkot. Andiyan na yung wala ng pasok, hindi na gigising ng maaga, wala ng requirements, wala ng mga nakakaantok na lessons, terror na teachers at mga annoying na classmates. Pero andiyan din yung mamimiss mo yung mga araw na may pasok, yung kulitan kasama ang classmates, yung kopyahan (hahahaha), yung cramming tuwing maraming requirements, yung gulo at ingay kapag wala pa yung teachers, yung pasilip-silip sa classrooms makita mo lang ang crush mo, yung mga moments na paggising mo sa umaga unang dinadasal mo na makita ang crush mo, yung pagtambay sa library para matulog at makipagchismisan, mababait na teachers, enjoy at toxic na duty hours, mapa-am, pm at graveyard shift. Hayy. Kahit ilang beses kong sinabi na "I hate school", hindi ko madedeny na mamimiss kong masyado ito. Yes, may review pa, parang school lang din, pero hindi mapapantayan ang excitement sa college life. Sobraaaa.

Hindi ko na maibabalik ang panahon noon, pero sigurado naman akong marami akong babauning kwento sa future. Hindi ko man maalala lahat-lahat, hindi ko naman makakalimutan yung mga natutunan ko sa four years kong namalagi sa school ko.

Salamat sa lahat ng mga nagpasaya, nagpalungkot, nagpakilig, nagpainis, nagpangiti at nagpaiyak sa akin. Isa kayo sa mga dahilan kung bakit mahal na mahal ko ang College life ko.

Cheers NDU BSN Graduates. Sa CHS angels, SOAR HIGH. Huwag tayong makuntento sa *insert name here*, BSN. May RN pa. USRN, MAN, at yung iba MD. Hehehe. Good luck sa lahat. Hindi pa dito natatapos ang paglalakbay natin. Malayo-layo pa, pero along our way, huwag kalimutang mag-enjoy, matuto at magmahal.

Till we meet again :)

Pinning Ceremony :)

A night to remember. Full of blast. A pocket-full of happiness and all. And a night to start missing everything about my college life :)

with Papa :)

with Mama :)

with Family :)

with Vera and Junella :)

with Bespren Recah :)

with Kachupoy :)

with Mami and Janine :)

with Mark :)

with Mami, Tay, and Bebe. Family Picture. Hehe :D

with my CIs. Sir Allan, Sir Ed and Sir Alejandro :p

with my thesis groupmate and friend Jewel :)

with Franz, Yanyan, Geejay and our Best in Psych, Bari. Hehe :)

with Diana, Asiah, Omai and She :)

NDU BSN 2011 :)

HAPPINESS :)

I just got home from my Pinning Ceremony and it was a success. This day's good, very. I have lots of reasons to be glad today.

First, I've got an unlimited opportunity to look or glance or stare at APPLE during our Pinning Ceremony because he was one of the color guards and I was seated in front. Haha. He welcomed me a sunshine-like smile the moment I reached my seat. And I also gave him a smile that he deserves, the sweetest. Hahaha.

Second, our thesis was nominated for the the Best in Thesis Award. And unexpectedly, we got the award! I am so happy that I didn't have the time to think what should be my reaction. My groupmates were crying and I just stood nervously and my hands started shaking. Really, being a nominee is enough for me because I believe that it was a great achievement since there were lots of any other thesis and we were one of the bests. While I was on stage, I can't think of any but to reminisce the experiences we've been through. I realized that after receiving this kind of award, all pain, misunderstandings, money, skipped meals, sleepless nights, stress and even tears are worth it. That revising our first proposal and starting from scratch one week before the submission were all reasonable. That I should be thankful of misfortunes because sometimes, they were all blessings in disguise. Hehehe.

I say thank you to God for all, for guiding us while working on it, for the intercession and for the wisdom. Of course to my parents for their eternal support and unconditional love. Hehe. To our adviser who asked us to revise our first proposal, for not spoon-feeding us, for letting us do all the works but remain at our back to motivate and guide us and for asking us to modify every detail of our study to make it not perfect but at least better. To my classmates who show moral support and for lifting everybody's spirit when everyone's down. To my inspirations for inspiring me to pursue in doing good in our paper. For my friends who are always there ready to pat our back for a job well done. And of course, of course, to my groupmates for sharing with me priceless moments that taught us truckloads of learnings. Just so you know, this is a sequel of our acknowledgement. Haha. Hayy!

And I even got a Service Award which I can't really believe. I'm dead serious! Hahaha.

And now, I'm all anxious because graduation is just days away and graduation means review after and review means board exams on July. Hehehe. Woooo!

Congratulations to my BSN 2011 batchmates:)

This is reality.

Well yes. I ain't counting for the days before graduation but it seems like I have my own countdown timer in my system. I'm not like others who are starting to bid farewell because seriously, it makes me unhappy. Of course, I'm excited to graduate but with just mere thought that I'm about to leave everything, my emotions flip into something I can't understand. I was once in a place where I really want to finish my college because it got too tiring. It was easy said than being in the place where graduation is days away from reality.

It was the end of February when my batchmates can no longer help to start saying goodbye and remembering those years we have spent in school. It makes me wonder why such things are so early but then I realized that we only have less than a month to enjoy school. I should be jumping in joy since this is what I want, but the other side of me is being so blue and missing everyone already. I have to admit that I really hate goodbyes. I'm afraid of ending something and looking back to things or moments I can no longer rewind. I'm afraid of starting another chapter of my life while I'm being blind of what's in front of me. But what can I do? Nothing for sure.

Though I like to pretend that I won't miss school, friends, teachers and crushes (hahahaha) I CAN'T. Hahaha. Because I will surely miss all of them. The cozy school, crazy friends, enigmatic teachers and stirring crushes. Hayy! Just the thought of leaving makes me cry. And after graduation, it would never be the same again. I have to be more mature and hardworking. I have to work myself out for our coming board exam and this time, it's serious.

Actually, after our pre-pinning ceremony, reality hits me. Everything starts to sink in. And there were times I don't want to sleep at night because it means that the day is about to end and another day is about to start when I woke up. That the calendar will soon be running out of dates. :(

Okay! Let's all suck it up. Graduation will be on 27th of March. But I won't be saying good bye because I know, in God's time, we'll see each other again. Congratulations in advance :)

Annyeong!~

Mind-Blowing Q&A by Indian Administrative Services (the most difficult exam in India.)

Q.How can you drop a raw egg onto a concrete floor without cracking it?
A. Concrete floors are very hard to crack! (UPSC Topper)

Q.If it took eight men ten hours to build a wall, how long would it take four men to build it?
A. No time at all it is already built. (UPSC 23 rd Rank Opted for IFS)

Q.If you had three apples and four oranges in one hand and four apples and three oranges in the other hand, what would you have?
A. Very large hands.(Good one) (UPSC 11 Rank Opted for IPS)

Q. How can you lift an elephant with one hand?
A. It is not a problem, since you will never find an elephant with one hand. (UPSC Rank 14 Opted for IES)

Q. How can a man go eight days without sleep?
A. No Probs, He sleeps at night. (UPSC IAS Rank 98)

Q. If you throw a red stone into the blue sea what it will become?
A. It will Wet or Sink as simple as that. (UPSC IAS Rank 2)

Q. What looks like half apple?
A : The other half. (UPSC – IAS Topper)

Q. What can you never eat for breakfast?
A : Dinner.

Q. What happened when wheel was invented?
A : It caused a revolution.

Q. Bay of Bengal is in which state?
A : Liquid (UPSC 33 R ank )

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#SS3 Manila

It's tearing me apart to see these pictures. Waa. I wish I was there. Hmm. One day, I'll be a part of the Pearl Sapphire Blue Ocean :) SS4, bring it on! Hahaha :)

Anyway, I'm proud of the boys! There are lots of Filipino ELFs in their concert!

Wooah!~

The moment I got the chance to see your face, that's the exact time I can define HAPPINESS :)

I've been feeling depressed for the past few days for some known and unknown reasons. As possible, I didn't want to talk to anybody at school and want to go straight in my bed and sleep the moment I got home. I'm too anxious about taking the board examination this July. Yes, it's still months away but I'm aware that time flies very fast. Also, I think I'm having a pre-graduation depression. Hahaha. And there are things which bug me to death. Things I can't forget, things that won't allow me to grin. Hayy. Life's been tough this past days. And I can't seemed to find reasons that will help me to recover those smiles and laughter I have thrown away for awhile. But of course, I'm doing my best to feel okay since I can't survive a day being so negative. Hmm.

And today, I think it's getting better. I woke up this morning having no heavy feelings. School's been good and so as the people around me. Hahaha. My mood was pretty good, I was able to tell jokes and share stories again. I find the topic in our review interesting and even got right answers when we were asked some questions. Good vibes, eh? But I really hoped to see someone to fully uplift my mood. Hahaha. And I was reciting the chant again that will make the person I want to see appear in front of me. Too childish! I actually learned that thing from one of the Korean drama I saw. Hehehe. And yes, as expected, I saw him after class. Hehe. It's not the first time that I was able to prove the chant's effectiveness. Hahahaha.

Anyway, this isn't a best day but at least, it wasn't bad. Yehey! Thanks to my good vibes fairies :)


Dear God,

the world is facing another cruelty. Please help us. Libya is miles away from me or from the people I love but it's really hard not to care. Hundreds of people were being killed by low-lives not even deserve to be called as human. Please Lord. Keep every men, women, children and old safe. People should realize what they're wasting are innocent lives. Help each and everyone of us.

I'm a FAN :)

A year ago, I was not really into KPOP. If there are things I love about Korean culture, KPOP is an exception. Yes, I studied Korean language and the likes, because I find it interesting and amazing. KPOP artists, I found them weird in many ways. And even looked at the business as a “dirty business”. News stated that most of the artist were forced to signed contracts. And there were even harassment stated.

But now, it’s the other way around. I learned to appreciate them like I appreciate the Filipino music. Appreciated them like I can understand every lines in their songs and appreciated them as hardworking artists. Sure, no one can deny that they’re all awesome. They’re all talented like they were all born to be that way. But one thing I love about most of the KPOP artists is their determination in the business where they are now. It’s tough. Every group struggles to stand on their feet while competing for (I think) hundreds of other KPOP groups. After releasing an album and having it hit, they’re not sure if it will be the same story for the next months. And another thing which amaze me is despite of the competition in the business, they’re all friends. They value each other as brothers or sisters. The members of the group stand for the other member. Despite of the controversies, they can shake it off away from their butt and continue to amaze the fans. They never give up, they remain positive. They have the styles which they can call as their own. They have music which people will love upon hearing it. They have lyrics which everyone can relate to. And when ask if I can understand it? Yes. Some. and Hello, English translations! hahahaha. But that didn’t matter a lot, as long as I know what’s the message and the story behind the song. People should remember that in order to understand something, we need to know the story behind it, each meaning of the word doesn’t matter, as long as we get the message.

Now, I’m learning Korean again. Because to visit Korea is one of my fondest dream. And because maybe, someday, I’ll be able to speak with one of my biases. Call me crazy, sure I am. But this craziness others can’t understand is now a part of my blissful life. People have no idea how much things I learned from them. People have no idea how seeing them perform makes my bad day turned out well. People have no idea how their smiles make my heart melts in joy as if those were only for me. People have no idea, and will never have an idea.

Call me crazy, sure I am. But one thing’s certain, I’m not a crazy desperate girl but I’m a crazy happy lass :)

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Baby Breanna :)

Umalis ako kanina with friends. Nagkita kaming magkakagrupo sa town. Nagpakita na rin sa wakas si Ate Budeng, yung dati namin kagrupo na may baby na. Kahit medyo matagal kaming nag-antay, ayos lang. Ako, personally, super excited talaga na makita siya at ang baby niya. Ilang months din kaming hindi nagkita. Isa pa man din siya sa pinakaclose ko sa grupo. Ayon! Pagkatapos naming mag-antay ng ilang minuto, dumating din siya. Dala yung baby niyang super lusog. Nag-unahan kami sa pagkarga. Hahaha. Tapos bumili kami ng earrings niya. Pinaglagyan namin. Walang gustong kumarga sa kanya habang nilalagyan siya ng earrings dahil naawawa, kahit yung mama niya. Hehehe. Sobra yung pag-iyak niya. Tapos ang dami naming nagpapatahan sa kanya. Parang anak naming lahat. Hehehe.

Pagkatapos, karga-karga ko siya at umakyat kami sa arcade. At walang ginawa si Baby Breanna kundi titigan lahat ng lights dun hanggang sa makatulog. Kumain kami sa Jollibee at pinagpatuloy ang walang kapagurang chikka2x.

Hayy! Ang saya ng araw na ito. Kasi nga, ilang beses na rin naming pinlano na magkita kami at ngayon lang natuloy.





Umalis ako kanina with friends. Nagkita kaming magkakagrupo sa town. Nagpakita na rin sa wakas si Ate Budeng, yung dati namin kagrupo na may baby na. Kahit medyo matagal kaming nag-antay, ayos lang. Ako, personally, super excited talaga na makita siya at ang baby niya. Ilang months din kaming hindi nagkita. Isa pa man din siya sa pinakaclose ko sa grupo. Ayon! Pagkatapos naming mag-antay ng ilang minuto, dumating din siya. Dala yung baby niyang super lusog. Nag-unahan kami sa pagkarga. Hahaha. Tapos bumili kami ng earrings niya. Pinaglagyan namin. Walang gustong kumarga sa kanya habang nilalagyan siya ng earrings dahil naawawa, kahit yung mama niya. Hehehe. Sobra yung pag-iyak niya. Tapos ang dami naming nagpapatahan sa kanya. Parang anak naming lahat. Hehehe.

Pagkatapos, karga-karga ko siya at umakyat kami sa arcade. At walang ginawa si Baby Breanna kundi titigan lahat ng lights dun hanggang sa makatulog. Kumain kami sa Jollibee at pinagpatuloy ang walang kapagurang chikka2x.

Hayy! Ang saya ng araw na ito. Kasi nga, ilang beses na rin naming pinlano na magkita kami at ngayon lang natuloy.


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(Peace sign) Hahaha. Nagmana ata to sa akin eh. :p

Sana lumaki kang mabait tulad namin. Hahaha. At malandi tulad ng nanay mo, at tulad na din namin. Lumaki kang matalino at masayahin, magalang at maganda, syempre! Andito lang kaming mga fairy gods and goddesses mo. Lab you, Baby Bren! :)

1000th Day of SHINee


Today is SHINee's 1000th Day after they debuted on May.

Thank you SHINee for inspiring a lot of people. Thank you for making us happy, making us cry with your heart-melting stories and making us realize a lot about success, friendship and hardwork.

Keep the SHINee heart burning with desires to be more successful in your career. You all deserve a happy and successful life. Every SHAWOL, including me, will forever support you. SHINee, hwaiting! :)

Late post about my February 14 :)

February 14 has always been an ordinary day for me. Though I expect some special things to happen, I'm not that sure.

Last Feb 14 was decided. I have to go to school earlier than the required time to buy a cake for our group. Everyone in the group decided to treat ourselves this valentine's day. And it's too sweet to have a cake in this occasion. Teehee! Anyway, we're waiting for our clinical instructor to come. My groupmates were sitting at the other table browsing the net. And me, sitting alone in the red table playing with the red, heart-shaped balloon I have received from a friend. Gaaah! I'm suffering from an awkward feeling when it's valentine's day and having a moment alone. Naaah! Nothing's serious. I just sat by myself since there were no empty sit at the other table. Okei? But honestly, I prayed quietly that somehow, God will let me see him even for just a second. Ohhh please! Hahahaha.

We're about to go when I noticed someone who's familiar. And there he was, walking passed by me and haven't seen his face since I was busy doing whatsoever I can't remember. Booyaah! Unlucky me! And when he passed again I was inside the van and my groupmates kept calling him and greeted him a happy valentine's day. I turned red and can't help but smile. At least, goal was partially met, saw him but not his face. Hahahaha.

Travel. Travel. Travel.

When we arrived at Midsayap, I was feeling unwell. So, I lied down, I was holding my phone and hoped to receive a message from him. My phone beeped but to my disappointment, it was not him. So, I closed my eyes and took a nap before the orientation with our CI started. My phone beeped again and my heart almost jumped outside my chest when I saw the name of the sender. Waaaaaah! And I hurriedly got off from bed and announced it to my groupmates. I felt nervous that's why it took me a thousand year to open the message. Hahahaha. I opened it with my eyes half closed. It was just a simple Valentine greetings but it means so much to me. He made that ordinary day special, the one I can't forget. We exchanged messages for a short period of time and I didn't expect him to be that gabby. I was sooooo ecstatic! I was smiling all the time. Shizz! :)

At 6pm, we went to the hospital to have our duty. And eventually went back to our boarding house at past 9pm because other school owned the schedule :| Our CI gave us an alternative activity to be submitted at exactly 12mn O.O And because we're genius, we finished the task before 12mn. Hahahaha. Joking at the genius thingy :p

My groupmates and I celebrated the last minutes of February 14. We had our picture-taking and ate the cake until nothing's left. Hahaha.

I really enjoyed my Heart's Day. Suuupeeeer! :)

Thoughts before Valentine's Day :)

If you’re single (like me), you might be asking yourself with whom you’ll spend your valentine’s day. And the answer would always be with family, friends or worst, alone. It will be just a one-day event but it seems like hurting you to death. Right?

Whenever Heart’s day is coming, people got excited. Hearts can be seen all over your place. Couples are planning a date ahead, buying gifts/flowers for their partners, and thinking of different ways to make this day special for the both of them. Well, singles start listening to love songs, getting themselves a gift and planning a date with their friends who are, of course, single like them.

I should be feeling sad because I’m spending every valentine’s day since then without a boyfriend but I’m not. Hahaha. I maybe bitter about Feb14 at some point but I’m sure it won’t kill me. Hahaha. I always spend it with my family and friends, and sometimes, spending it with my lovely test papers during our examinations.

Why do we have to wait for February 14 every year to show our love to someone? Why can’t we make each day special with our love ones? Why would everybody think about “couples” when we heard about Valentine’s day? Is it something we could only spend with our boyfriends/girlfriends? How about with our family and friends?

“May puso din ako. May kasintahan man o wala, pwede akong magcelebrate ng valentine’s day.”

I remember myself saying this lines to a friend. He asked me who I like to date this coming Monday. Because it’s trueeeeee. I hate hearing those people telling that “Shit! Ang lungkot ng Valentine’s day ko. Wala akong ka-date. Nakakainggit yung may mga kasintahan and blaah blaah blaah!” Please, cut the crap! That’s an overrated drama every Valentines’s day. We can all be happy tomorrow by spending it with our loved ones. Yes?

Happy Valentine’s Day, friends :)

Hindi ibig sabihing niloko ka nung una, eh lolokohin ka ng mga susunod pa.

Kaya nga sinabing magkakaiba ang bawat tao. Kung ano man yung ginawa ng isa ay maaaring gagawin ng susunod o hindi na. Hindi ibig sabihing sinaktan ka ng taong minahal mo ay sasaktan ka rin ng taong mamahalin mo pa. Kung sa limang lalakeng minahal mo eh lima rin silang nanggago sa’yo, hindi ibig sabihing ganun din ang gagawin ng pang-anim, pangpito o pangwalong taong darating sa buhay mo. Baka nagkataon lang na separated at birth lang yung limang yun o baka naman nasa sa iyo rin ang problema.

Sa mga babae, hindi ibig sabihing niloko ka ng dati mong kasintahan at niloko rin ng kasintahan ang best friend mo, eh sasabihin mong pare-pareho lahat ng mga lalake. Sa mga lalake naman, hindi ibig sabihing malandi yung dati mong kasintahan eh malandi na rin lahat kaming mga babae.

Ano pa’t ginawa tayong magkakaiba kung ang konklusyon natin eh pare-pareha ang lahat ng tao sa mundo. Ano pa’t magmamahal ka bukas kung inuusig ka pa rin ng sakit ng kahapon?

Hindi tamang itulad mo ang isa sa marami. Hindi tamang ang pagkakamali ng isa ay pagkakamali ng marami. Hindi marangal.

Psychiatric Nursing Exam T.T

Before the exam

First questions...

Middle part of the exam...

While reading those unfamiliar questions...

After the exam, I was like...

And left the room first