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Ambivalence

Nakauwi na ako sa Cotabato. Balik sa normal na buhay. Mamimiss ko ang Davao. As in. The long rides, yung tipong nakakatulog ako sa jeep/taxi kapag may pinupuntahan. Yung confusing routes, na mas pipiliin ko na lang minsang magtaxi para hindi mawala sa city. Yung patayan sa sakayan kasi paunahan. Mga driver na nakakabadtrip dahil kahit alam nilang wala ng maupuan, basta kulang pa sa bilang ng pasahero, ipagsisiksikan. Yung traffic lights na tahimik na nagpapalit ng ilaw pero minumura ng mga driver. Aun! Madami pa. Yung lugar na araw-araw kong dinadaan for three long months. Yung 6-floor building na araw-araw kong inaakyat para sa review, yung mga co-reviewers ko, ang lecturers and funny staff. Yung tablemates ko na share-share hindi lang sa pagkain kundi pati na rin sa sagot during mastery exams. Yung mga kilig moments na hindi mapapantayan. All good things come to an end. Ganun? Hahaha. Matagal naman siguro akong makakabalik maliban na lang kung maisipan kong maghanap ng trabaho habang nag-aantay ng result ng board exams. Hahay

Pero syempre, masaya ako at nakauwi na. Namimiss ko na si Papa, Mama, at mga kapatid ko. Si Juan at Meetot na aso at pusa. Yung malaking kama at malamig na kwarto. Yung unlimited internet. Haha.

Sobrang nag-enjoy talaga ako sa Davao. But it’s not my place. So, move on. Haha.

Thoughts Last July 4, 2011: Separation Anxiety and Withdrawal

I didn’t wake up early this morning because I knew that there’s no review. Review was done the moment we finished our board exams. I know it’s depressing because after 3 months, I have to stop doing the routine - waiting a jeepney that took a lifetime, riding a jeepney on a smoke-everywhere road, climbing a six-floor building while catching my breath just to attend the review, answering lots of hundred-question exam, fighting the feeling of being sleepy during long lectures, laughing over our lecturers’ jokes, opening our lunchboxes like were little, doing the grab-your-license chant and most of all, seeing same angelic faces everyday.

It’s sad how everything should end like this. This is something I’m not exaggerating. You can’t blame me for treating those new people like special. I mean, I’m happy that I was able to survive the three long months, took the exam that will define my future and will be able to go back home, but goodbye is something I am afraid of. I made new friends, shared cute and hilarious moments, learned a lot, and all of these will become a part of my past. Habit is something hard to change. You see same people everyday and all of a sudden, you can’t. And you can do nothing about it but to remember those times when you’re still together. I know that this feeling will pass but I will never forget that once in my I had friends and I call them ANGELS. I miss you Angels :)